I guess we gave up? Got tired of being careful and just gave one collective “Eff it” and went back out in the world.

I mean, I didn’t. I haven’t.

But the crowds of people out and about in the world half-heartedly (or really half-assed-ly) semi-wearing masks and just…over it all…indicate that the US has pretty much decided it’s an every man for himself situation.

Decided this is over. Moved on to the next thing. Closed up shop on the Quar and…I dunno, what are we doing now? Joining the Denial Club?

I don’t want to be part of this club.

I want to be in the “not giving up” club. The “still staying home” club. The “let’s keep our parents alive” club. And you know…ourselves…and our kids.

It appears to be a smaller club than I thought.

I totally understand that people want to get back to work and staying home is hard and boring. And people want haircuts and pedicures and to go to the dentist.

I do not want to go to the dentist during a pandemic. I’m just gonna floss extra and wait that one out.

The government dropped the ball (all of the damn balls) on supporting stay at home efforts. On providing financial support for families. On providing guidance. On providing necessary supplies. On giving a shit.

It makes me super extra mad that because of all the ball dropping we won’t even benefit from all of the stuff that we gave up.

If we were just going to wing it and hope for the best, Amanda could have stayed in LA and finished her internship. Jack could have gone to his class trips and the prom and the end of school banquets and concerts and award ceremonies and, you know, GRADUATION.

If giving up all of that stuff was just too boring to sustain then why did we?!

I know why we did. And I am glad they were home and safe. And I’m glad we’ve kept my folks safe and will continue to do everything we can to play it smart. But damn. Really?

So many states are still showing increasing infection rates. Including Tennessee and Massachusetts where I am supposed to ship these kids off to in a couple of months.

My county here in PA is not hitting the targets to move to green status – although everyone is pretty much acting like we are already there.

It’s still here. It didn’t get bored with us.

I have no wrap up here. I had just sort of signed off like I thought it was over (I didn’t but I thought it was highly possible you all we tired of hearing about my day to day.)

And I wanted to pop back in to say I know it’s not. And I wish more people knew.

Hope you are all hanging in and managing your risk in a less anxiety ridden way than I apparently am.