On February 9, 2010 as part of my 43 Resolutions project (sad, failed, abandoned project) I wrote:

Maybe each person only gets so much good stuff and if you try to get more than what you’ve got coming, you lose somewhere else.

Right now I’ve got: health, home, reasonable financial security, a great family, etc… A full plate of good stuff.

So if I reach out for more…do I lose something else? I never really realized I had that kind of doom and gloom mindset. If I got all bikini worthy (not that I would actually wear a bikini…ever!) what would be the corresponding bad thing? I don’t even want to think about it. But I do.

I am trying to move beyond this, but it keeps sneaking up.

Does anyone else have this issue?? Or am I just making stuff up so I can go get some donuts??

And now – a little more than 2 years later – I have to say, I clearly angered the Universe when I said that.

Sorry, Universe. You can stop now.

I get it.  And I still kinda want a donut.